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I'm Lost ...

I'm so lost in noway.

I bet everyone goes through this stage before...

So what my problem?

Its like little people understands how i feel...

I'm doing job hunting recently.

Everyday I'll spent time looking for job.

Busy sending resumes.

Here's the problem....

I do not really know what i really wanted to do/work as.

Actually I got the job on spot during my first interview.

Almost everyone feels that i should be happy about it.

Infact, I'm not.

I feel so lost, so emo, so inferior about myself, soo lacking of confidence,

so afraid to take the first step.

Maybe this is not the job i'm finding after talking to my sis and b.

It very nice of them to be so patient and understanding towards me.

I may be acting like a child, and soon i have to wake up from this hiding....

On one side, i am tense up because that i might be not able to find a job,

on the other side i'm attending all the interviews, but they may not be the one i'm looking for.

Anyone feels the same before?

Twitch - Tsk!

Twitch - Tsk!

Confession:

My right eyelid has been twitching for around a week.

I got VERY worried about it, not because it's causing any problem, but it became an IRRITATION.

An ANNOYANCE that is getting on my nerves!

At first, i'm fine that it's twitching once in a while, BUT then,

this repetitive twitching happens every few hours, EVERYDAY!

It not only get onto my nerves, now it creeps into my CURIOSITY!

There's always a saying in term of SUPERSTITION.

or rather irrational belief....

I admitted, seriously i'm abit? you know into these kind of theories...

TO SOLVE THE MYSTERY!

I went to do some research~

In scientific way of saying:

Myokymia is the medical term used for eye twitching
(lucky that i'm not experiencing Blepharospasm)

So the involuntary spasms may be caused by stress, tiredness, eye strain, caffeine and/or alcohol, dry eye, nutritional imbalances or allergies.

ME spinning in my thoughts:

" Stress, nah.... i dun think so"

"Eh, i have insomnia recently, so i was rather active?!"

"NODDING!! I did drank more milk tea recently....
Iced tea is also made of caffeine rite?"

"I did consumed whisky chocolate ice-cream, BUT it was only in the afternoon & it was very minimum amount"

"I'm rubbing my eyes in my sleep, shouldn't it produce wetness to my eyes?"

"I'm eating my meals regularly, or maybe give me the definition of nutritional imbalances ?"

"Allergy = my rubbing of eye, but again i'm not rubbing everyday,
it's TWITCHING EVERYDAY"

I bet if I told the doctor about the above statements, he won't be able to know which is main root cause.

Sooo....

I ASSUMED its mixture of the symptoms I had!

In the superstition way of saying:

I ALWAYS thought that the left eye twitch would represents good luck, while the right eye twitch significantly mean bad omen?

But then my belief was wrong?

The interesting part is that the twitching of eye can be explain in terms of gender, almanac as well as religious.

"The twitching of the right eye in men signifies an important windfall or good luck, but a twitching left eye would signify ill luck. In women, a twitching right eye would signify bad luck, while a twitching left eye signifies good luck."

Also, it can be based on the anatomical breakdown of the eye. A twitch in the lower right eyelid means, a good fortune is headed your way while one in the upper eyelid signifies financial loss.

You see, my right eye is twitching so it signify bad luck BUT its' my lower eyelid that is twitching all the while.

so it means that i'm having bad luck but i'm having good fortune?

"Hmmm, bad luck not yet, fortune not yet either."

Prayed hard *cross finger* that bad luck don't ever come to me!